Roots

The ultimate cliche–gone back to my roots. Watching movies where the character seems to have lost it all, they return to where it all began.  In that process the realization sets in that what was once lost has been there the whole time. Living in that cliche I’ve learned the core of your being stays the same, no one can take away experiences, your love for people and the things that created you.

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My life is in constant motion, the sun rises and the sun sets and not a single person can stop that.  Anxiety provoking? Yes. However, it can be therapuetic in way knowing the current situation won’t stay as it is as long as I keep waking and resting with the rest of the world.   Opportunities keep yeilding themselves to me, and every one I take I learn something new.  I am grateful for what is yet to come and for all that I’ve had.

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I’m en route to New York City as we speak to add another experience under my belt, Coterie. A global event really, the mission: to present and sell spring 2019 of various designers to retailers around the world.

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Wearing Zara hat and dress, Coach boots

 

 

 

 

 

 

Florida Part IV

 Our last day in Florida was honestly one of the most entertaining experiences I’ve ever had. All of us went on a 20 person charter to try our hand at deep sea fishing.  I was so hesitant at first because I was intimidated by going out onto the ocean.  I grew up on boats but only ever went to our local lakes.  Lately in my life, I’ve learned to embrace the thrill of doing things that frighten me a little.

We climbed onto the boat and cruised down the windy channels that brought us out to sea. The skies were heavy and grey, which is actually perfect for fishing. The crew gave us instructions whilst slicing up bait for the chum buckets.  It was shocking in the way that I really wasn’t prepared for what I saw. We each learned how to bait our hooks and drop our lines.  I jumped right in.

Boom. After minutes of having our lines dropped, swaying in the waves a few miles away from the shore we started catching fish! They were bright and colorful, not what I expected at all.  It was a whirlwind to see what we caught. The build up of feeling something grab at your line, then having to reel it in with all your might was exhilarating.

With plenty of help from each other and the crew, our group caught a total of 21 fish.  We released most of them back to the ocean due to size and species restrictions.  Megan caught a puffer fish, which is pretty rare to pull out of the water like that. The crew member sat down and let us take a closer look before releasing him back to the sea.

Tony was one of the crew members, he helped unhook our catch and measure to see if they met the specs.

We got to take home 5 of our fish after they prepped them for us.  We marinated and grilled them for dinner that night, and it was honestly so delicious and fresh. Even if we hadn’t caught anything, and our intention wasn’t to bring something home.  The experience of being out on the water, all of us laughing and squealing with excitement was worth it. I was sad our week was coming to a close, this time away from everything familiar to me helped me expand my mind and learn to love and accept the place i am in in my life.  I could have shared so much more, and I’m sure I will as time goes on, but I hold onto all of the new memories I created, whether or not a camera was present.

Florida Part III Miami

Oh my goodness have you ever been to a place where the water is so blue you couldn’t believe it was real?! The only beaches I have been to were deep blue and chilly, absolutely nothing like South Beach, Miami.  My dad told us we had to take a day to see Miami and I am so happy we went.  One day wasn’t nearly enough though. We all stayed in the water the entire day, floating in the shallow waves, catching little sand crabs and filming fish on our fake-pro (a generic goPro). The city towered over the coast majestically and eventually we had to regain our land legs to go get something to eat.

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After we were forced to leave the water by our sun-burned skin and need for food we ventured into Miami Beach and went down to Lincoln Lane where there were lots of restaurants and shopping.  It reminded me of how New York City closes down parts of Broadway in Herald Square for outdoor dining and temporary pop-up restaurants from around the 5 boroughs.  The vibe was very Miami Vice though, I loved the stucco buildings, archways and palm tree lined sidewalks. We ate at Havana 1957 and had an amazing Cuban dinner outside on the sidewalk under umbrellas and huge fans.

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The family branched off and we all went our own ways to do some exploring.  Megan and I found a shaved ice cream shop through an alley way of palms and an outdoor coffee shop. It had a private little courtyard where we got to eat our sundaes together and watched green parrots flit and fly around.

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Wearing BCBGeneration shorts and top, H&M hat

After  dinner and shopping we walked the ocean path back to our car and enjoyed the full moon casting its light through the Miami skies.

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It really wasn’t enough time. I want to make it a point to go back to Miami and take it all in. The perfectly turquoise waters and the vibe of the bustling city beyond its calming waves was mind altering and honestly took me away from everything that I’ve been carrying with me these last few months.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Florida Part II

Like I was saying in my previous post, Florida has been a really positive place for me. Since we were so close to the beach there was not a single day we didn’t spend some time there.  The water is so warm and the sand so soft. Nothing like what I’m used to with beaches in the northeast.  Usually getting into that water you have to go numb before you can get all the way in because the water is freezing. The craziest part about the water in Florida both in Hollywood and Miami, were the little fish that would swim around our feet. It tickled and scared the shit out of me because I don’t like not knowing what is touching me and have an irrational fear of a shark attack (not to mention it was shark week last week, so that was heavily on my brain).

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Megan and I made the effort to wake up early enough to watch the sun rise over the ocean, neither of us had ever experienced it before and was totally worth the lack of sleep.

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Since we were up so early we watched the restaurant, Broadwalk, next to our house open up for breakfast and got outdoor seating over-looking the ocean. We started out having breakfast with my sister and her boyfriend and the rest of my family members trickled into the restaurant as they woke up.

 

Mimosas on the beach were essential.

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Then we hit the beach.

Wearing H&M hat and Bikini…found this cute mandala blanket on Amazon for $19.99!

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Wearing an Ella Moss one piece.

So just before this trip I was desperate to find a one piece that was trendy and youthful, but also made me feel feminine. Days before we had to leave I stopped into Marshall’s and took a peak in their clearance section, they were almost sold out of all of their swimwear and this one jumped out at me. The only one piece in my size and with all the flattering cut outs…done! It was only $30 too.

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We ate some amazing meals most of which were Mexican or Cuban my absolute favorite. I did some research one day and found a really great taco place just off the boardwalk in Hollywood called Taco Beach Shack.  They had the coolest outdoor dining area with tons of string lights, fans and Mexican decor. The food was out of this world especially the  grilled corn, I hope I can recreate it.

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My Dad and I…see the resemblance?

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After dinner they started setting up a live band which we sat and listened to for a while having lots of margs and dancing along. The atmosphere was everything you could want from a traditional Mexican restaurant, the vibe and the people had an amazing energy.

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Wearing BCBGeneration pants, F21 tank

One of my favorite things to do was to relax on our balcony.  We had views of the city and the ocean, almost a whole 360 degrees.  I’d watch thunderstorms roll in, and a few really incredible sunsets.

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It literally took my breath away…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Florida Part I

On the mend from a severe sinus infection and bronchitis, I am finally getting around to putting together a post about my week in Florida with some of my family. I’m going to break it up into parts because there is so much to take in. Florida has only given me good experiences such as, going to Disney World with my mom and my sister in 2013. It was so much fun especially as adults plus, it was my first time on a plane (so crazy I know). Then in 2014 I was invited to a round of interviews in Miami for the Macy’s Executive Development Program and ended up being offered a job prior to my college graduation (a major milestone in my life, my dad also came with).

The last several years have been a constant transition in my life and the lives of my family members as well. It has been a dream of my dad’s to take his kids on vacation with our blended family. It took us a long time to get to this place but I feel that I am so blessed to see my family on both sides in a much better place than where we were in the past. Anyway, I also got to share this trip with my girlfriend, we had an amazing time with so many new memories to cherish. She is an official survivor of a Portuguese Man O’ War sting and I got to ring the siren in the ambulance (not as funny at the time).

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My Dad rented the most adorable house literally on the ocean.  It was so quaint, clean and beachy. Megan and I got the best room in the house too, we had a private upstairs suite with a balcony and ocean views.

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The first morning we had our coffee on the balcony taking in all the beauty around us. I’ve never had the experience of almost feeling like I lived somewhere so tropical. Having our own little sanctuary was exactly what we needed to break away from the grind and monotony of everyday back home.  Not that it’s a bad thing but it is so refreshing to be around something new and beautiful.

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The backyard was so sanctimonious. The palms, aloe plants, and wild flowers were all the things I could fantasize about when I think of anywhere tropical. And of course I needed an impromptu photoshoot with the local flora. All these pics were surprisingly taken on an iphone X via Megan.

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wearing Ella Moss one piece swimsuit, BCBGeneration duster, H&M hat and sunnies

Escape to Yaddo

Never take for granted the places just beyond your backyard. The gardens at Yaddo have become one of my favorite places to visit when I need to have a date with my mind or some peace from everyday stressors. Originally a home to the Trask family, they decided to dedicate the property to artists and creative minds.  Although the public is allowed to visit the gardens, admission to the mansion and residency is only open to artists, writers, photographers, composers and choreographers who must go through an application process.

A home for the mind to simply be itself; free and open to all possibilities outside of the realms we are taught.  A place so close to me dedicated to art and beauty that I have the privilege of visiting and riding its energetic wave will not be taken for granted. And although I may complain about being here in Upstate New York, I always remind myself of the many redeeming qualities that are just beyond my door.

Wearing Free People dress and Modern Vice boots

I encourage anyone who loves the outdoors, the arts, and travel to visit their website to learn more about Yaddo’s history and its artists here.

New York in a Day

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Wearing Zara jacket, Free People jeans, Frye boots, vintage Coach bag

It’s been two months since Megan and I moved back upstate from the city.  I can’t even begin to express how much I miss living there.  The diversity, hearing a handful of languages spoken all at once, the way people dress, laugh, experience and enjoy the city stimulates me. I do consider myself lucky to live within driving distance even if it is two and a half to three hours.  However, I am reminded daily that all things do happen for a reason and not to sound cliche about it all I really do believe that.

Last week I went to my former job here in upstate New York just to see people and say hello. Unexpectedly, I ran into my good friend and stylist who I love dearly and long story short I am now an assistant stylist for the holiday season! This opportunity is amazing and honestly a dream of mine.  Helping people is the ultimate high for me. So being able to assist them in finding great clothes that make them feel amazing, beautiful, handsome, and insert any another words for those feelings, makes me feel like my purpose here is important and appreciated.

I am so happy I was in the city yesterday with Megan, she gifted me this awesome lense for my camera. It was supposed to be a Christmas present but she couldn’t wait until then since this was the only day we would have together considering our busy schedules.  She also scooped this amazing coat from Zara, lined with sherpa and super warm I had to wear it. We started the day at our favorite brunch spot in Harlem called The Edge that was only a few blocks from our old apartment. Then we decided to see the tree in Rockefeller Center and shopped at the pop-up Christmas market in Union Square. It was odd knowing we couldn’t just hop on the subway right back to our apartment but it was a good familiar feeling to be in the city for the day.

 

Illuminated

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Top: first layer BCBG second layer Forever21 | Jeans: Guess | Shoes: Zara

One of my favorite trends right now is layering. I can remember being a kid in the 90’s and my mom buying pre-stitched layered tops and loving them.  Now as an adult I am reimagining some pieces in my wardrobe. I love anything flowy and romantic, so just when I thought I couldn’t wear these summer tops for another few months I suddenly saw them together. Paired with my new favorite guess jeans and these Zara flats I felt like the inner child in me was dancing with delight.

There is something incredibly romantic about the city at night from a view like the Brooklyn Brigde. It’s been a challenge for me to capture its radiance on camera because it just doesn’t do justice to what the human eye can see. It illuminates my mind, stimulates my thoughts and creativity and helps me to believe I can accomplish something, that must be what draws people here like moths to a flame. We are moths to a dream.

 

 

Welcome to New York

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When I said I wanted to move to New York, I said it with the hope of unveiling something incredible. It is my dream to be able to express myself, create, and motivate others to see the beauty in life. No matter where I am beauty is there. Perception is the key, and changing it is the secret.

So here I am, in the city I’ve dreamed of living in.  It’s been over a month since I’ve moved; two apartments, a few weeks sleeping on an air mattress, and a big adventure ahead of me.  Since I was consumed by uprooting the life I’ve always known, I didn’t have a lot of opportunity to post anything.

I can tell you the process to get to this point is not what you read in stories or watch on television.  The glamour is what you make of it.  I was lucky enough to be in a loving relationship with a person who helped achieve this wild dream.  Together we drove ourselves until no end, looking for apartments between all hours worked, and both coming down with pneumonia the first week in our new city, there was no rest, no down time.  Good news is it all paid off and I am pinching myself to see what I have accomplished. I’m hopeful and excited to see where this next chapter will bring me.  I miss my family and my beloved animals every day, but I must keep things moving in order to progress.

An interesting note: I bought this jacket after my birthday in July, the brand is Blank NYC. At that point in time I was wishing for a sign, something to help push me to make this move.  It was too hot for a leather jacket but I scooped it up anyway. I couldn’t wait to post it on here and find the right moment to wear it. How apropos, it was perfect for the mild weather we were having.

Shoes: Michael Kors | Jacket: BlankNYC | Jeans: Zara

 

 

Upstate Adventure

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It’s already mid-August and I want to drink every last drop of summer I possibly can.  This has been the hottest and most humid summer upstate New York has seen in a while.  And one thing I definitely struggle with is living in the moment, I feel like I’ve always got some kind of obligation holding me back from enjoying something wonderful.  It’s my nature to want to take a fraction of time and pause it long enough to gather my thoughts and take in the beauty around me.  The things I love most I need a lot of time for them such as, my family, my relationship, and my farm.  I wish it wasn’t as unacceptable to be open about it or to express that I require more time for that purpose. There’s this sense of competition amongst human beings such as: Who works harder? Who needs more rest? Oh you think you’ve got it bad? Take a look at my laundry list of responsibilities.  How do we actually break away from those behaviors and just be.

I love long drives and I love being at peace in nature, especially by a body of water. I walked along this stream and took in all its beauty.  I watched the sun light gleam onto the water, pour onto and through me.  Then I took a drive down a road I had never been before and saw this incredible view of mountains and fields.  Pasing a big cow farm, I stopped to take a picture of this particular cow because he looked so tranquil on top of his hill, and he looked directly at the camera.

What I’m wearing: Shoes: Target | Shorts: Guess | Shirt and Tank: F21 | Sunnies: RayBan