A few weeks ago I committed the greatest crime–stealing from my mother. We’ve all done it, if not from mom then from a sister or bff for sure. Sometimes, in my opinion it’s better to ask for forgivenes than permission in these cases. I’ve also been on the other end of this equation, and I am always skeptical to let one of my pieces go. My mom snagged this Elie Tahari top for quite the steal, and showed it to me immediately during my lunch break. I can’t lie I was sooo jealous, I love a great deal, hell I get a rush from it! But, I let my mom have it knowing someday I’d sneak it into my wardrobe.
After asking me to help her clean and organize her closet (a fun hobby of mine I should make money doing it) I saw the top and took it home with me. Posting it on social media was brave and I gave credit where it was due. She actually loved how I styled it and wanted to borrow my pants! I had to share her version, she literally stole my look Joan Rivers style. Who says mommas can’t look just as good!!
Wearing Elie Tahari top, Free People jeans, mom in Zara booties
When something bothers me it’s hard to get it off my mind. I have to talk about it with the people closest to me. I enjoy and value social media in the way that it gives everyone the opportunity to express themselves, the same way I feel about fashion. Sometimes it’s hard to differentiate people’s intentions, however. When you look through the filters and the captions, is the real person behind all of it?
Staying genuine to who I really am is important to me, but I’m sure I could be perceived differently than that because perception is subjective. And being an influencer is also important to me, but the message I want to convey is not be like me, but find yourself and how beautiful it is to be original and unique. Self love is often the hardest to find, I speak from experience. I see and have seen so many people I love in my life go through the same struggle and it is one that never actually ends.
I love inspiring people. Outside of the cyber world I talk about my clothes, give advice to my loved ones and try to live my best life. I never want that to end, I feel it’s part of my purpose here.
I am wearing Zara shorts, F21 duster and H&M booties
I do this for myself. I create my own canvas.
For years I’ve struggled with feeling like I had to choose between two versions of me. Raised on a small farm secluded from the neighborhood kids I developed a strong bond to myself and my family. I learned about who I was from a very young age because I spent a lot of my time alone with my thoughts.
Fast forward to now and I can tell you a piece of me remains that way, however, I crave the stimulation of a buzzing city, art and creativity. I long for diversity and variety in people and places. When I am in the city I miss the farm and solitude and when I am in upstate New York I miss the stimulation. I’m learning how to find that balance and blend my two worlds together.
I love capturing the contrast and really sitting with it. Officially knee deep in my mid-twenties I have learned to love myself even more and found ways to express my creativity and truest nature. I feel that many people in my position are still struggling to find that truth bogged down by the pressures of society. College may have given us the diploma, but where do we go from here? How does the self fit into this new landscape yielding to us? And so I turn to things like photography, writing and fashion to give myself the outlet not provided to me, reestablishing my genuine thoughts, my raw creativity.
Wearing Michael Kors romper, vintage 1980’s belt, H&M boots
Two things to know about me are one, I do not own a full length mirror and two, I always take advantage of good lighting.
Having dinner plans with an old friend forced me out of my t-shirt and yoga pants I had been hanging out in all day due to the plague I finally kicked. I’ve been on a pretty tight budget the last several months and couldn’t really afford to buy anything new. I love to retire things from my wardrobe for a while in anticipation that they will breathe new life again one day.
I bought these pants a couple years ago. They are the most comfortable pants I have ever worn and can hide any food baby or bloated belly without making me feel constricted (perfect for grabbing dinner in). I thrifted this little cut off charmeuse top from Buffalo Exchange a handful of years ago. It was my virgin trip to the second hand boutique in Brooklyn and have been a frequent shopper ever since.
SO, I guess you could say I am not the type of person to give something a toss if I haven’t worn it in a year. I grow attached to my clothes and think of them as little treasures that carry many backstories as to how they got into my possession. And in times of needing to feel fresh and new I know I have an archive I can head to first.
I love feeling comfortable and tend to go to layering my basics to add some detail to a pretty simple outfit.
Wearing BCBGeneration pants, top is thrifted from Buffalo Exchange
Since being home from a really nice and long overdue break, it has been difficult to adjust back to my old routine. Honestly I hate routines although some things require it such as, good hygiene, sleep and exercise, I loved having the stimulation of being somewhere new and experiencing a different wave of energy.
Ever since I was a young girl I have always had a fascination with flowers and plants. I loved gardening and picking bouquets of wildflowers to keep on my nightstand. My sister and I would catch butterflies in the horse pastures and release them into my bedroom to flutter around for the day then return them back to the wild.
When I came home from Florida I had a lot of new energy and ideas with me, I felt like I was in a really good mental space. Like I was saying earlier breaking the routine is so important to me. After a while I began to lose sight and made plans just to get through each day or each week resulting in tunnel vision.
I am happy to be home with my animals and my own comfy bed, that is always a plus. But I am also inspired to get out and do more. I want to make the rest of this year an adventure since I spent the first six months recovering from a major surgery, not that that wasn’t an adventure in and of itself. I had to hustle to make ends meet while also being physically impaired. I’ll share more on that and my dog-walking adventures soon.
During my hustle to make ends meet, I wasn’t always able to freshen my wardrobe. I’ve become creative with recycling old outfits and even borrowing from family to liven up some tired pieces. This maxi skirt is from Marshall’s circa 2013 roughly. I gave it to my mom when I couldn’t find ways to wear it anymore. I saw it recently in her wardrobe and it popped out at me telling me to take it! The sweater and the bralette were part of my buying frenzy as a manager at Macy’s, they have also been laying around wanting some wear.
I get a lot of my style inspiration from other style blogs, my friends and people walking by. I saw a picture of Karlie Kloss wearing a maxi skirt with a long sleeve tee and white sneakers on her Instagram and loved it, that is how this look was born with a little bit of my own countryside style.
Wearing BCBGeneration top, Free People bralette, Maxi skirt is from Marshalls
Bodysuit: Free People | Jeans: Paige Denim | Shoes: Michael Kors | Sunglasses: Rayban