Our last day in Florida was honestly one of the most entertaining experiences I’ve ever had. All of us went on a 20 person charter to try our hand at deep sea fishing. I was so hesitant at first because I was intimidated by going out onto the ocean. I grew up on boats but only ever went to our local lakes. Lately in my life, I’ve learned to embrace the thrill of doing things that frighten me a little.
We climbed onto the boat and cruised down the windy channels that brought us out to sea. The skies were heavy and grey, which is actually perfect for fishing. The crew gave us instructions whilst slicing up bait for the chum buckets. It was shocking in the way that I really wasn’t prepared for what I saw. We each learned how to bait our hooks and drop our lines. I jumped right in.
Boom. After minutes of having our lines dropped, swaying in the waves a few miles away from the shore we started catching fish! They were bright and colorful, not what I expected at all. It was a whirlwind to see what we caught. The build up of feeling something grab at your line, then having to reel it in with all your might was exhilarating.
With plenty of help from each other and the crew, our group caught a total of 21 fish. We released most of them back to the ocean due to size and species restrictions. Megan caught a puffer fish, which is pretty rare to pull out of the water like that. The crew member sat down and let us take a closer look before releasing him back to the sea.
Tony was one of the crew members, he helped unhook our catch and measure to see if they met the specs.
We got to take home 5 of our fish after they prepped them for us. We marinated and grilled them for dinner that night, and it was honestly so delicious and fresh. Even if we hadn’t caught anything, and our intention wasn’t to bring something home. The experience of being out on the water, all of us laughing and squealing with excitement was worth it. I was sad our week was coming to a close, this time away from everything familiar to me helped me expand my mind and learn to love and accept the place i am in in my life. I could have shared so much more, and I’m sure I will as time goes on, but I hold onto all of the new memories I created, whether or not a camera was present.
It’s already mid-August and I want to drink every last drop of summer I possibly can. This has been the hottest and most humid summer upstate New York has seen in a while. And one thing I definitely struggle with is living in the moment, I feel like I’ve always got some kind of obligation holding me back from enjoying something wonderful. It’s my nature to want to take a fraction of time and pause it long enough to gather my thoughts and take in the beauty around me. The things I love most I need a lot of time for them such as, my family, my relationship, and my farm. I wish it wasn’t as unacceptable to be open about it or to express that I require more time for that purpose. There’s this sense of competition amongst human beings such as: Who works harder? Who needs more rest? Oh you think you’ve got it bad? Take a look at my laundry list of responsibilities. How do we actually break away from those behaviors and just be.
I love long drives and I love being at peace in nature, especially by a body of water. I walked along this stream and took in all its beauty. I watched the sun light gleam onto the water, pour onto and through me. Then I took a drive down a road I had never been before and saw this incredible view of mountains and fields. Pasing a big cow farm, I stopped to take a picture of this particular cow because he looked so tranquil on top of his hill, and he looked directly at the camera.
What I’m wearing: Shoes: Target | Shorts: Guess | Shirt and Tank: F21 | Sunnies: RayBan
One great thing about living in upstate New York is that there are many hidden trails and secret spots where you can melt into the world. I drove by this nature trail countless times and truly had no idea what was beyond the gravel parking lot and the large sign hidden in the shadows. Then came a day where I was spontaneously invited onto its path and was completely enamored. I loved the small wooden boardwalk which seemed lonely, but also warm and curious. The cattails teetering in the wind pulled me down the trail and every corner I turned was new, yet familiar.
Another great thing is this dress. I was in such a rush to find something light and summery, but also slightly sophisticated. The long sleeves and the dainty florals are what grabbed me initially, and then the open back and the criss-cross detail completely sold me. I love a great find when I least expect it.
Dress: Forever21 | Shoes: Converse
There’s nothing I love more than a super flowy top that makes me feel ultra femme, light and beautiful. The last few weeks have been incredibly hot and humid, definitely out of character for upstate New York. But, I will take all these days I can get and all things flowy help me stay cool and put together.
P.S. Bronco thinks he’s the kanine version of Where’s Waldo, He likes the camera time if it gives him more time to spend with me.
Top: Free People | Shorts: Free People | Sandals: Nine West
One of my favorite things to do, especially after a long day at work, is to go on a walk. My two favorite four-legged friends (Bronco and Baley) love to come with me and explore. I think they loved it more than I did since the field had just been cut and baled for hay, it felt like new territory to them.
Top: Free People | Bottoms: some awsome no-name joggers from Macy’s | Shoes: F21 | Scarf: Portola
On my day off I had this desire to go to the beach. It was incredibly impulsive but I just wanted to do it, so I grabbed a towel, threw on my bikini and drove three hours to the jersey shore. The car ride may seem long to most people but, for me, I love being alone with my thoughts and listening to some good music. It was exactly what I needed and in a time where I have been constantly searching for answers I am beginning to realize the search is pointless and I just need to live my life. The ocean is peaceful yet so intense with the way the waves pound onto the earth. It’s actually quite ironic and that is what I love about it. The sound of the waves, the seagulls calling and the sand beneath my feet brought me back down to earth again. I loved every second and I would do it again.