Roots

The ultimate cliche–gone back to my roots. Watching movies where the character seems to have lost it all, they return to where it all began.  In that process the realization sets in that what was once lost has been there the whole time. Living in that cliche I’ve learned the core of your being stays the same, no one can take away experiences, your love for people and the things that created you.

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My life is in constant motion, the sun rises and the sun sets and not a single person can stop that.  Anxiety provoking? Yes. However, it can be therapuetic in way knowing the current situation won’t stay as it is as long as I keep waking and resting with the rest of the world.   Opportunities keep yeilding themselves to me, and every one I take I learn something new.  I am grateful for what is yet to come and for all that I’ve had.

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I’m en route to New York City as we speak to add another experience under my belt, Coterie. A global event really, the mission: to present and sell spring 2019 of various designers to retailers around the world.

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Wearing Zara hat and dress, Coach boots

 

 

 

 

 

 

Self Love

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When something bothers me it’s hard to get it off my mind. I have to talk about it with the people closest to me.  I enjoy and  value social media in the way that it gives everyone the opportunity to express themselves, the same way I feel about fashion. Sometimes it’s hard to differentiate people’s intentions, however.  When you look through the filters and the captions, is the real person behind all of it?

 

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Staying genuine to who I really am is important to me, but I’m sure I could be perceived differently than that because perception is subjective. And being an influencer is also important to me, but the message I want to convey is not be like me, but find yourself and how beautiful it is to be original and unique.  Self love is often the hardest to find, I speak from experience. I see and have seen so many people I love in my life go through the same struggle and it is one that never actually ends.

 

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I love inspiring people. Outside of the cyber world I talk about my clothes, give advice to my loved ones and try to live my best life. I never want that to end, I feel it’s part of my purpose here.

 

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I am wearing Zara shorts, F21 duster and H&M booties

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ballin’ on a Budget

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Wearing Free People jumpsuit, Steve Madden shoes

 

When I envision myself, this is what I see.  Maybe the years of running through open fields in summer dresses with my sister has something to do with that, or maybe it’s my fascination with Vogue spreads, who knows. But, when I try something on or see it hanging delectably off of a mannequin, I imagine myself in all my femininity running through a field one with myself and nature.

As I said before, almost everything in my closet has a story.  This one has been told countless times to all my friends and family due to my sheer excitement and dire need to own this jumpsuit.

I first saw it in a window at Lord and Taylor and was immediately drawn to it, Megan even pointed it out to me.  Weeks had gone by and we had to head to the mall to get some last minute things for our trip to Florida when I saw it there again, still in the window.  I stopped to check the price, and knew it was not going to fit in my budget. It stayed on my mind though and when I had to go back yet again to pick something up, it was gone.

  Now I was panicked like I lost my chance. I went and found it, the very last one and it was marked down! I tried it on and needed it desperately so I put it on hold.

Two days before I had to leave I went back one final time, money in hand. The associate told me it had been put back on the floor after markdowns were taken, and me, devastated, would not believe this could be true! Having worked retail for so long I knew that it had to be on a rolling rod somewhere in the back so a merchandiser could take the markdowns.  I pleaded with the girl to please check one more time since I was leaving for vacation in a matter of hours.  She did. As she walked over to me, jumpsuit in hand, I was elated.  Just when I thought it couldn’t get any better she rang it up revealing it had received another markdown going from $148 to $78 to now $37. That’s when I knew it was meant to be mine.

Stop and Smell the Wildflowers

Since being home from a really nice and long overdue break, it has been difficult to adjust back to my old routine.  Honestly I hate routines although some things require it such as, good hygiene, sleep and exercise, I loved having the stimulation of being somewhere new and experiencing a different wave of energy.

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Ever since I was a young girl I have always had a fascination with flowers and plants.  I loved gardening and picking bouquets of wildflowers to keep on my nightstand.  My sister and I would catch butterflies in the horse pastures and release them into my bedroom to flutter around for the day then return them back to the wild.

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When I came home from Florida I had a lot of new energy and ideas with me, I felt like I was in a really good mental space.  Like I was saying earlier breaking the routine is so important to me. After a while I began to lose sight and made plans just to get through each day or each week resulting in tunnel vision.

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I am happy to be home with my animals and my own comfy bed, that is always a plus.  But I am also inspired to get out and do more.  I want to make the rest of this year an adventure since I spent the first six months recovering from a major surgery, not that that wasn’t an adventure in and of itself. I had to hustle to make ends meet while also being physically impaired. I’ll share more on that and my dog-walking adventures soon.

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During my hustle to make ends meet, I wasn’t always able to freshen my wardrobe.  I’ve become creative with recycling old outfits and even borrowing from family to liven up some tired pieces.  This maxi skirt is from Marshall’s circa 2013 roughly. I gave it to my mom when I couldn’t find ways to wear it anymore. I saw it recently in her wardrobe and it popped out at me telling me to take it! The sweater and the bralette were part of my buying frenzy as a manager at Macy’s, they have also been laying around wanting some wear.

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I get a lot of my style inspiration from other style blogs, my friends and people walking by.  I saw a picture of Karlie Kloss wearing a maxi skirt with a long sleeve tee and white sneakers on her Instagram and loved it, that is how this look was born with a little bit of my own countryside style.

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Wearing BCBGeneration top, Free People bralette, Maxi skirt is from Marshalls

 

 

Florida Part IV

 Our last day in Florida was honestly one of the most entertaining experiences I’ve ever had. All of us went on a 20 person charter to try our hand at deep sea fishing.  I was so hesitant at first because I was intimidated by going out onto the ocean.  I grew up on boats but only ever went to our local lakes.  Lately in my life, I’ve learned to embrace the thrill of doing things that frighten me a little.

We climbed onto the boat and cruised down the windy channels that brought us out to sea. The skies were heavy and grey, which is actually perfect for fishing. The crew gave us instructions whilst slicing up bait for the chum buckets.  It was shocking in the way that I really wasn’t prepared for what I saw. We each learned how to bait our hooks and drop our lines.  I jumped right in.

Boom. After minutes of having our lines dropped, swaying in the waves a few miles away from the shore we started catching fish! They were bright and colorful, not what I expected at all.  It was a whirlwind to see what we caught. The build up of feeling something grab at your line, then having to reel it in with all your might was exhilarating.

With plenty of help from each other and the crew, our group caught a total of 21 fish.  We released most of them back to the ocean due to size and species restrictions.  Megan caught a puffer fish, which is pretty rare to pull out of the water like that. The crew member sat down and let us take a closer look before releasing him back to the sea.

Tony was one of the crew members, he helped unhook our catch and measure to see if they met the specs.

We got to take home 5 of our fish after they prepped them for us.  We marinated and grilled them for dinner that night, and it was honestly so delicious and fresh. Even if we hadn’t caught anything, and our intention wasn’t to bring something home.  The experience of being out on the water, all of us laughing and squealing with excitement was worth it. I was sad our week was coming to a close, this time away from everything familiar to me helped me expand my mind and learn to love and accept the place i am in in my life.  I could have shared so much more, and I’m sure I will as time goes on, but I hold onto all of the new memories I created, whether or not a camera was present.

Florida Part III Miami

Oh my goodness have you ever been to a place where the water is so blue you couldn’t believe it was real?! The only beaches I have been to were deep blue and chilly, absolutely nothing like South Beach, Miami.  My dad told us we had to take a day to see Miami and I am so happy we went.  One day wasn’t nearly enough though. We all stayed in the water the entire day, floating in the shallow waves, catching little sand crabs and filming fish on our fake-pro (a generic goPro). The city towered over the coast majestically and eventually we had to regain our land legs to go get something to eat.

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After we were forced to leave the water by our sun-burned skin and need for food we ventured into Miami Beach and went down to Lincoln Lane where there were lots of restaurants and shopping.  It reminded me of how New York City closes down parts of Broadway in Herald Square for outdoor dining and temporary pop-up restaurants from around the 5 boroughs.  The vibe was very Miami Vice though, I loved the stucco buildings, archways and palm tree lined sidewalks. We ate at Havana 1957 and had an amazing Cuban dinner outside on the sidewalk under umbrellas and huge fans.

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The family branched off and we all went our own ways to do some exploring.  Megan and I found a shaved ice cream shop through an alley way of palms and an outdoor coffee shop. It had a private little courtyard where we got to eat our sundaes together and watched green parrots flit and fly around.

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Wearing BCBGeneration shorts and top, H&M hat

After  dinner and shopping we walked the ocean path back to our car and enjoyed the full moon casting its light through the Miami skies.

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It really wasn’t enough time. I want to make it a point to go back to Miami and take it all in. The perfectly turquoise waters and the vibe of the bustling city beyond its calming waves was mind altering and honestly took me away from everything that I’ve been carrying with me these last few months.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Florida Part I

On the mend from a severe sinus infection and bronchitis, I am finally getting around to putting together a post about my week in Florida with some of my family. I’m going to break it up into parts because there is so much to take in. Florida has only given me good experiences such as, going to Disney World with my mom and my sister in 2013. It was so much fun especially as adults plus, it was my first time on a plane (so crazy I know). Then in 2014 I was invited to a round of interviews in Miami for the Macy’s Executive Development Program and ended up being offered a job prior to my college graduation (a major milestone in my life, my dad also came with).

The last several years have been a constant transition in my life and the lives of my family members as well. It has been a dream of my dad’s to take his kids on vacation with our blended family. It took us a long time to get to this place but I feel that I am so blessed to see my family on both sides in a much better place than where we were in the past. Anyway, I also got to share this trip with my girlfriend, we had an amazing time with so many new memories to cherish. She is an official survivor of a Portuguese Man O’ War sting and I got to ring the siren in the ambulance (not as funny at the time).

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My Dad rented the most adorable house literally on the ocean.  It was so quaint, clean and beachy. Megan and I got the best room in the house too, we had a private upstairs suite with a balcony and ocean views.

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The first morning we had our coffee on the balcony taking in all the beauty around us. I’ve never had the experience of almost feeling like I lived somewhere so tropical. Having our own little sanctuary was exactly what we needed to break away from the grind and monotony of everyday back home.  Not that it’s a bad thing but it is so refreshing to be around something new and beautiful.

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The backyard was so sanctimonious. The palms, aloe plants, and wild flowers were all the things I could fantasize about when I think of anywhere tropical. And of course I needed an impromptu photoshoot with the local flora. All these pics were surprisingly taken on an iphone X via Megan.

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wearing Ella Moss one piece swimsuit, BCBGeneration duster, H&M hat and sunnies

90’s Child

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27. That is where I am today. Born in 1991 this dress may possibly be as old as me. I was given the task of helping my mom clean out her closet a few weeks ago and saw this gem. The 90’s were cool but I was a child of many fashion disasters, like those little floral dresses with the weird built-in bibs (anyone know what I’m talking about here?).

My headshot circa 1995

 

Also, I had bangs…with curly hair…I love my parents but why the bangs? They always stuck up like I had horns because my hair curled on the top of my forehead. But I’ve survived all of that and even took the risk this last year of cutting my hair shoulder length and that’s working out too.

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This last year of my life was pretty amazing, I was living in New York City working in fashion wholesale and had a studio apartment in Harlem with my girlfriend. We adopted two kitties from the ASPCA and shared so many memories as a little family.  I’ve said in previous posts (24, Seven Ten) that my birthday is an important day for me. I like to reflect on the changes in myself; my growth, my opportunities and all of the things I have accomplished.  Each year is a milestone to me and learning how to tell people my new age is like writing 2014 on a form at the doctor’s office but hello its now 2018 how could I be lost in time?! Anyway, my goal for this year is to do the things I say I want to do.

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I had six months off from life after I had shoulder surgery. I needed time off of work because the recovery process is long and brutal and that gave me a lot of time to myself, maybe a little too much time. Now I’m back to work and working through life lessons that no one really prepares us for, but our parents warn us about from their own life experiences. The amount of love and support I have received from my loved ones and my friends has been that guiding light for me and now that today is officially six months post-op (I picked January 10th on purpose knowing my freedom date would be my birthday) I can now ride my horse again and do all the fun activities I love to do like a true Upstate New Yorker. This year will be a good year like every other year has been, and I’m also aware that there may be some struggles in my future and I’m ok with that because with every struggle comes a strength.

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Wearing vintage Ulterior Motives dress and Nine West sandals

A Little Pick-Me-Up

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When I say a pick-me-up I don’t mean coffee, I mean shoes. I’m sure that goes for a lot of people?  They always make me feel so good. Anyway, I snagged these for $12.99 at Zara. Yes. $12.99. So, already that makes me love them even more. And they are just what I wanted to lift my spirits since it is still winter and I am still recovering from shoulder surgery.

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Lace-up boots and booties bring me back to a time in my childhood when I found a pair of lace-up heels in my mom’s closet and wore them around the house pretending to be a grown woman. Those were circa 1989. Who knew my little fantasy would come to fruition.

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Wearing Zara shoes|Free People top|Zara denim

 

New Women Space

Nothing makes me happier than seeing others thrive and succeed especially when those people are near and dear to me. A good friend of mine hosted a fashion show where she and a few designers curated their own small collections. Needless to say it was a huge success and incredibly inspiring. We’ve been through it all, from countless sleepless nights at FIT together to a beautiful display of one of her biggest achievements to date.

I wouldn’t miss this event if my life depended on it. And it was my first outing since my surgery last month. I literally saw the doctor the day prior and got the okay to go. Megan and I packed up the car, styled our outfits the morning of and left for Brooklyn. Before the show we had a quick dinner at Mesa Coyoacan a quaint Spanish restaurant in Williamsburg with an excellent authentic margarita. Afterwards we headed to A New Space for Women, which held her event. All our proceeds from ticket sales and pins designed by the designers went to charities of their choice. We had an amazing time catching up with friends and seeing their hard work come to fruition. I’ll be sure to share the vlog Megan is working on this week.

We never imagine exactly what our success will look like, but we do imagine the feeling.

Wearing Zara velvet trousers (similar pair here, and here)| Zara boots |BCBGeneration blazer