Roots

The ultimate cliche–gone back to my roots. Watching movies where the character seems to have lost it all, they return to where it all began.  In that process the realization sets in that what was once lost has been there the whole time. Living in that cliche I’ve learned the core of your being stays the same, no one can take away experiences, your love for people and the things that created you.

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My life is in constant motion, the sun rises and the sun sets and not a single person can stop that.  Anxiety provoking? Yes. However, it can be therapuetic in way knowing the current situation won’t stay as it is as long as I keep waking and resting with the rest of the world.   Opportunities keep yeilding themselves to me, and every one I take I learn something new.  I am grateful for what is yet to come and for all that I’ve had.

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I’m en route to New York City as we speak to add another experience under my belt, Coterie. A global event really, the mission: to present and sell spring 2019 of various designers to retailers around the world.

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Wearing Zara hat and dress, Coach boots

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Space for Women Video Diary

I’m so excited to share this video Megan filmed and edited, it was an amazing event with some really talented women.

Something New

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Wearing Free People sweater under BCBGeneration dress with Frye boots

As things change in my life whether they are unexpected or even possibly for the better, it is always a shocking reminder that life is not necessarily in my control.  Having moved back to my dreamy little farm in upstate New York, I do miss the livelihood of the city and the ever changing faces around me. Learning how to embrace change still presents a challenge to me.  I love it don’t get me wrong, I crave it honestly but I still struggle because although I may see into what is changing, I can never truly predict the future.

Since I love change so much I thought I needed a drastic change and got my hair cut.  I used to have bangs when I was a pre-teen and hated them.  Now, at 26 I love myself a lot more and embrace how my body, face and hair have changed over the years. I feel like a new person and I can still kind of see that little girl deep inside learning to love herself too.

Winter here has been so mild it doesn’t actually feel like winter.  Today marks the ten year anniversary of when I brought my horse, Hunter, home.  I remember how snowy and icy it was then and now I’m wearing a thick sweater and tights, barely feeling the elements. I’m not complaining but I do hope it snows before the holidays.

On the Pier

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Top: BCBG | Jeans: Zara | Shoes: Steve Madden

The Boat Basin in New York City has become my go-to spot.  My girlfriend and I had discovered it while riding on the bike path that hugs the Hudson River. We actually rode by it about a dozen times before we finally decided we needed to check it out, and ever since then we have shared it with our friends and family and drank several pitchers of pina coladas in between.

September in New York is just an extension of summer.  I scored these jeans at Zara for $19.99 during their semi annual sale weeks ago and wear them with everything.  They’re high-waisted, mom-ish and torn in all the right places.  I’ve also worn these shoes seen in a previous post, “When it’s too Cold, Drink Coffee” so much I want to clone them. They are my all time favorite shoe, velvet, pink and somewhat masculine. I’m all about wearing something I love over and over again. The same piece can breathe new light when it’s styled with something different. I get a boost of new energy when two not-so-new pieces of my wardrobe create a look I haven’t worn before. It’s just as good as buying something new, even better actually, because I’m not breaking the bank.

A Walk on the Wild Side

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Dress: Free People

This is my time. Time to take risks, make life changing decisions and teeter on the edge of responsibility and spontaneity. I decided I want to move to New York and BOOM I was there. I was terrified and excited but I was there. I got a good job that noticed my hard work and promoted me quickly but still something was missing. And now an amazing opportunity has unveiled itself to me and I have nothing to do but take it. From a young age both of my parents told me to become the person I desired to be, that my dreams are never too big.  One thing that I’ve learned is to take what life gives me and adapt because it just keeps going and not that I could ever be left behind, but I could be left with my own blocks and fears. Being in my twenties has really pushed me to develop myself and to create a world in which I would want to live. What I don’t want is to wake up someday and say ‘I wish I did that.’  I always have faith, and present what it is that I truly want on a day to day basis, and if you haven’t experienced it yet, postivity attracts even more positivity.  And be sure to surround yourself with people who believe in you and support you no matter what.  They are the poeple who don’t think you’re silly if you want to take pictures in a field with your wine glass, they join in.

Thoughts into Words

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Wearing Guess Denim | Zara Boots | Zara Top | Jacket gifted

Remember what it was to be young and hopeful. Always try to hone that feeling in. In the last few years so much has changed in my adult life. I continue to struggle with what it is exactly I want to do or be as an adult, because my unconventional self cannot fit into the molds provided for me. I see myself surrounded by love and light in my present and my future so how do I live day to day with the struggles of my reality without clouding this beautiful perception? The amount of debt, hours worked and countless odds and ends to fix, address and complete stack up against me. I try to peer through the mist, the vines entangling my imagination of the best life possible for me and the people I love. I get small windows of clarity that keep me going, that remind me and help me recognize and re familiarize the truth within. The truth in this life is to remain compassionate to all, embrace what is life and not the things in it.

Spring

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Spring. I love that word. It represents so many things, my mind buzzes with motion, fresh air, new life, transition, nature reviving itself once again.  Today marks the beginning of spring and luckily mother nature was kind enough to shower us with sunshine and warmer tempuratures.

When a shift in the season is upon me, I feel a shift within myself.  Not only am I considering the changes in my wardrobe and dreaming of floral everything, I am thinking about how I evolve continuously an embrace myself as those changes occur.

We decided to go to the park because we’ve been missing the lifestyle of our hometown in upstate New York. Whenever life seems to get hectic, nature is always the grounding force. In this city life is always hectic, and as time escapes me I have a desire to reconnect not only to myself but to my relationship. I look forward to our next adventures together. As we walked through the park I felt peaceful and calm, yet had this rush of energy running through me. Finally, spring is here.

Wearing Kut from the Kloth jeans | H&M top | Zara scarf 

Highs and Lows

Wearing Zara at the Chelsea Piers

Name a dream that you had that came true. I remember when I was 10 I wished for an orange kitten and what do you know, after my 11 birthday me and my sister each got to pick a kitten, dad was mad but who can resist two curly-headed daughters with hopeful tears in their eyes when the hay farmer says he’s got kittens.

I felt like I had a power in me from a young age to get what I desired, if I put my mind to it. I got into the college I had always dreamed of, the most beautiful horse I had ever seen was all mine. One thing for certain is those events did not happen like some fairytale, I worked so hard to get into FIT and had a lot of hardships and turns in the road. And that horse I got? He was dumped at an auction unloved by his previous owner. The moment I met him he was angry and struck the wall when I said hello. We have an amazing connection now, he gave me the world and now I leave him behind on my family farm to grasp another dream, to live in New York City.

I tend to seek water when I’m in need of reflecting on my thoughts. This week has been a week of highs and lows, quite literally.  The weather did that whole let’s change seasons in twenty-four hours thing again. It was 65 degrees and then just like that we snapped back to subzero temperatures. The water is peaceful, vast, ever-changing; like life. The fluidity helps me to understand the drastic changes that can happen in the span of a week, like a promotion at work (I’m so excited) and helping someone find their dog who ran away. Everything in life is relevant to what you seek.

 

 

When it’s too Cold, Drink Coffee

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Sweater: Free People | Top: Zara | Jeans: Guess | Shoes: Steve Madden

I love the freedom of this city, when you catch the right wave of energy it feels like an incredible breath of fresh air, a massive push in the right direction.  Plans can change in an instant.  I am in charge of my personal legend, every day has a story, come join me on this beautiful adventure…

New York has a funny way of giving us all four seasons in one week. The good thing about that is being spoiled with some warm sunshine, so much so I had bare arms the other day. On the down side the flu is in full force and I fell victim to it last week. All I can say is I am so happy to be in the light at the end of the tunnel and just in time to enjoy these last few days I have off from work.

I was excited to wear these shoes I snagged for quite the steal.  I saw them a couple months ago when they first came out and immediately needed them.  Reluctantly, I waited because I knew I would have them when the time was right, and voila here they are.  Velvet is a huge trend right now and how cool is it that they’re this beautiful blush color. Spring is all about transitioning and this shoe has transition all over it. I’m a little too eager for spring and Mother Nature had me confused yesterday with a beautiful 70 degrees and light breeze.  Today was not so forgiving, so I threw in the towel on my plans to adventure and settled with the idea of sipping on a hot chai tea in this cozy restaurant I found just down the street from my apartment.

Cabin Fever

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Outfit: Jeans Guess | Top BCBG generation | Sweater Free People | Boots Aldo

Now is that time of year where i can’t wait to get up and get outside, the only thing holding me back is the winter weather New York has been having.  Being a native to New York, I am well aware that winter generally lasts through March, but around this time every year I start to crave sunshine and greenery.  I can feel the slight changes in the atmosphere as spring tries to move in,  the days are finally longer with the sun casting light until 5:30pm (yay!). Believe it or not I can actually hear spring birds singing in the city, something I thought was only an upstate privilege, but city birds sing too. I thought I dressed warm enough, covering all parts of my body with thigh high boots and a super cozy sweater, but only 10 minutes out the door and a blast of arctic air that swept my beenie right off my head, I darted right back to my cozy studio.  Maybe next time…